Posts Tagged ‘WTF’


I wanted to be wrong about this

July 25, 2013

This gives me a cold sweat just to think about it, but I’m actually sad to see this appear in the news.

Annually, about five million patients stay in an intensive care unit in the United States. Studies show that up to 35 percent may have symptoms of PTSD for as long as two years after that experience, particularly if they had a prolonged stay due to a critical illness with severe infection or respiratory failure. Those persistent symptoms include intrusive thoughts, avoidant behaviors, mood swings, emotional numbness and reckless behavior.

Yet I.C.U.-induced PTSD has been largely unidentified and untreated. When patients leave the I.C.U., said Dr. O. Joseph Bienvenu, a psychiatrist and associate professor at Johns Hopkins University School of Medicine, “Everyone pays attention to whether patients can walk and how weak they are. But it’s the exception for them to be screened for psychiatric symptoms like post-traumatic stress or low mood.”

Now critical care specialists are trying to prevent or shorten the duration of the mood disorders, which can rattle not only I.C.U. patients but their frantic relatives.

So there’s a million or two folks, each year, that may be suffering from PTSD from their experience. It beats being dead, I know. Been there. But still, not nice.

I spent a month in the hospital trying not to die from respiratory failure, that was chalked up to a viral pneumonia (still don’t know what caused it). Been long enough that I can’t remember the specific terminology but I think it was characterized as ARDS. I was also not taking any care of my health, so I know I brought it on myself to some degree. A month lost, took a while to recover enough physically to function, but it took a year to recover in my head.

“I.C.U. patients have vivid memories of events that objectively didn’t occur,” Dr. Bienvenu said. “They recall being raped and tortured as opposed to what really happened,” such as painful procedures like the insertion of catheters and IV lines.

The I.C.U. setting itself can feel sinister to patients, as if lifted from “The Twilight Zone.” The eerie, sleep-indifferent lights. The cacophony of machines and alarms.

I can recall one specific instance of nearly jumping out of my skin one day, when a radio program played the noise of a ventilator and I mistook it/recognized it as something out of a nightmare. Crazily enough, it was understanding that it was a ventilator noise that helped – the realization that these nightmare visions had some basis in reality, however distorted. But that’s just the most vivid experience I can recall, while awake…that was months after the hospital stay, those sedation drugs were long gone. I still feel sometimes, irrationally (and I know it), that some part of me died there and I lost something essential. That’s nothing compared to the folks all too willing to offer interpretations on what few details I did let spill to anyone at the time.

I don’t want to say more about it. Certainly not going to share this on Daily Kos like my gun violence diaries; better that nobody or almost nobody reads this. Even if it was in the NYT. But I have more evidence, more understanding. I wish that felt good, but it doesn’t. It just…is, and I don’t want to forget. The understanding, that is. Some parts of this I will never forget.


I know, it’s late

April 14, 2013

…but I found this in some late-night internet wandering and I wanted to share it with my pals playing the Werewolf chronicle with me.


Now I want to introduce some new characters just to poke some fun at this name list.  🙂  Ah well, too easily amused.


Winding down

March 25, 2013

Still posting a bit at Daily Kos, although lately I have been too busy to spare a few minutes to copy it over here. May be like that for a few months, even; work is getting busy indeed. Not a bad thing, really, just less spare time is all. I expect my frenzied posting on gun control at DK will have to wind down some, too. It’s just going to be that kind of spring.

I did find this though, in my internet wandering. It’s not what it seems…


If male superheroes dressed like the women

July 28, 2012

The Escher Girls tumblr has become one of my regular stops for entertaining mockery of comic book art. Our RPG chronicles like Vampire and Werewolf feature plenty of female characters, none of which I could ever imagine doing the scantily-clad broken-spine poses. Today I found of one those turn-the-tables posts, putting some men in superhero costumes that are more reminiscent of the heroines.

I’m glad at least Spider-Man was brave enough to do the butt attack pose, although the commenters pointed out the telling lack of thongs. Well, in fairness, for most of them we just don’t know. The dudes are in good shape!

Was it this bad back when we were buying comic books? Probably, yeah.


Ohio, backsliding?

June 18, 2012

The stuff they put on Daily Kos these days.

Earlier this month, in the letters to the editor section of the Findlay (Ohio) Courier, this gem ran:

Something in the “Just Ask” column (Page A3, May 29) disturbed me. According to the column, “the Ohio buckeye, Aesculus glabra, bears flowers with both male and female organs on the same tree. It is a monoecious species.”

I couldn’t believe this, so I did some research and, sure enough, a science website ( states that “the Ohio buckeye is polygamo-monoecious, bearing both bisexual and male flowers.”

The buckeye is our state tree and most of us gladly wear the nickname, “buckeyes.” But it is shameful and unacceptable that a bisexual tree should represent us! We are flaunting the Holy Bible!

Yes, they are certainly flaunting that bible, it is the sexay, in that tight leather catsuit of a cover and…ok, I am just making fun of the writer’s lack of English comprehension. Moving on. I can only imagine how a good American bible-believing species of tree reproduces. Missionary style for a tree, usually means it’s dead, right?

He’s right though, don’t flaunt that bible. Especially in some parts of Ohio. I mean it borders on West Virginia in parts. Anyway, make sure to call any Ohioan conservatives Buckeyes with a grin.

Does anyone know if carnations are bisexual?

Jim Flechtner, Findlay

Mom being the gardener magistra could probably tell me about the birds, bees and carnations, but I looked it up

A single carnation plant has both male and female reproductive organs, allowing them to self-pollinate and form seeds. The male organ, or stamen, is covered in pollen. Insects and sometimes birds pick up this pollen and transfer it to the female part of the flower called the pistil in the course of feeding. Carnations require pollinators with long proboscises as their flowers are deep, making access to the pistil difficult for smaller insects. After successful pollination is achieved, the flower begins to die off and the seed head matures.

Ok, so it’s also self-pollinating but it does require a long proboscis. There’s something to be proud of, eh?

(resisting the urge to look up some pictures)

Anyway, at least in my net-searching I can find that the letter was satirical. There is some hope for Ohio.  🙂


One for the ages

June 15, 2012

Wonkette articles usually have a way with words (and wisecracks) but I’m linking this one mainly because I have to save this picture. It’s just…well. I don’t really have the words.


Back to life, back to obscurity

January 3, 2012

My latest diary on Daily Kos went back to my more typical pattern of no one paying attention to it, but that’s ok. It’s a sort of rant-ish posting, considering the rash of pro Ron Paul idiots spamming the site with racist commentary and Republican advocacy, neither of which has any place on DKos. Having tired of hearing the same old crap about Ron Paul advocating some liberal positions, I took on his economic plans with a philosophical hammer.

Should be useful for quick rebuttals against the Paul bots in the future. \